Two Peaceful Weeks in the Calendar, Even More Peaceful Yesterday

For years I’ve watched two tournaments that end and start a week apart every spring. The environment in each case is good for my soul whoever is victorious.

The second one on the calendar, the Monte-Carlo Masters, was first a tennis championship in 1897. Its center court provides a view of the magnificent Mediterranean. That court is surrounded on either side by seating with character and European taste sprinkled with cabanas. The serenity I’ve always loved by beautiful bodies of water comes home to me all that week. “He leadeth me beside the still water:” Psalm 23, 2a. It’s even a gentle surface upon which the tennis is played, clay.

The first one each year, the Masters in Augusta Georgia, has a particular place in my heart because I lived in that somewhat pastoral town in the mid-70s. I remember the traffic as a non-issue. I’d go to work on my bike rolling down a pleasant hill.

When I first lived there I lived in apartments next to the Masters course, in essence a green pasture with beautiful pines, flowers, ponds, bridges and creeks.  “He maketh me to lie down in green pastures,” Psalm 23, 2b. The pasture is studded with large beautiful golf greens that in contrast challenge every golfer with the most pressure filled, prestigious of all the major tournaments. It’s in many ways, the Wimbledon of golf, though it started a bit later, 1934.

Sergio Garcia had played in over 70 major golf tournaments without a victory despite his fine game. Then yesterday, at 37, to the surprise of many, he found peace in that beautiful pasture and came home a victor. I had watched him for many years, now showing a bit of white on the whiskers of his chin. Those were frustrating times for Sergio and I had seen the frustration across his brow many times. The victory was so sweet.

How his fellow golfers felt about his victory was best expressed by his good friend and primary competitor yesterday, Justin Rose, winner of a major in 2013. “If I was going to lose, I’m glad I lost to Sergio. “

H. Rubin, memoirist and author of “Look Backward Angel”, an e-book available at Amazon.


Seattle For a Few Days

cropped-me-in-black-and-white-2016Visited Seattle for a long anniversary weekend. We were struck by the aromas of wonderful baked goods and quality coffee that wafted through Pike Place Market. Our time in the market in some ways was like a visit to the turn of the 19th/20th Century. We breakfasted twice in the Athenian Seafood Restaurant, a cafe that opened the year of my late father’s birth, 1909. We watched cheese being made at Beecher’s. We joined in the laughter as large fish were flung to others in the market. I guess the flingers were sure I would drop one. Don’t miss Pike Place in the course of your travels.

H. Rubin, memoirist and author of “Look Backward Angel”, an e-book available at Amazon.

Today’s Loss of a Great American Hero

Senator Glenn was famous for attracting the fire of antiaircraft guns as a fighter pilot and for guiding one spacecraft into our atmosphere so as to avoid becoming a great ball of fire. Later evidence indicated the maneuvers weren’t needed because the instrument signal about the status of the heat shield was wrong. BUT, nobody knew that at the time.

On top of everything else despite being a human guinea pig/test pilot he lived to the ripe old age of 95. Now that’s protoplasm. But more importantly, that was the hand of God.

H. Robert Rubin, Memoirist and Author of Look Backward Angel, an e-book available at Amazon


Sermon for Self-Purification

I think this country has been traumatized because too many people on each side have been seeing our country in black and white, no grays. Any one who writes or speaks publicly knows that hyperbole gets attention. It came from both sides. It’s divisive.

To the extent we can share our stories and their nuances, I think we will see more grays. I’ve tried to look back at the pain and joy I could share in my memoirs. You might find them comforting. Hope all goes well on your journey.

H. Rubin, author of Look Backward Angel, an e-book available on Amazon.


Since election night, I’ve been waiting for my leadership–any leadership: in my workplace, in my church, in my political party–to say something.  They haven’t.  Not the something I’ve been waiting for.  I’ve heard many calls for unity, for “moving toward one another,” even for action.  Many leaders have implored us to enact love and respect, to begin the process of reconciliation we’ll need to recover from the divisiveness of the election.

The problem with that message, for me, and for many others, I think, is simple psychology: trauma.  This election is different from other ones, and many of my friends feel trauma more than disappointment or anger.  We can see this difference playing out in the number of people seeking therapists, calling in sick, and in our schools where our children imitate us in a sick micro-performance as detailed in yesterday’s Sunday Times.  My husband and I work in schools…

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Revisiting My Memoirs

Some thoughts on my own memoirs….With God’s help I’ve been on a long journey to enhance my love and diminish my anger and fear. At 70 years of age, I’ve written 21 essays reflecting on God’s hand in my life. A famous writer once suggested you need to bleed on the page to write well. I have had much reason to celebrate despite the hard times expressed in my work. If the reader has 3 hours and $3.99 to spare I suggest you consider this portion of a review by one reader: “Dr. Rubin uses themed mini vignettes as chapters to tell the story of his life. It is a beautifully written account of one man’s life journey through childhood wounds and suffering. He takes the reader through the ups and downs of his career, his marriage, and parenting. There is pain, trial, joy, and ultimately peace. We journey with him as he travels from a victim to a victor. It highlights surrender, humility, faith, and above all else, love. It is almost a ‘how-to’ self-help book if it didn’t read like a poignant novel.” She later says, “Look Backward (Angel) is a story of hope and encouragement.”

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A Whole-Hearted Worklife

I dropped out of clinical medicine after 15 years of practice. I became a medicolegal claims professional managing malpractice claims. My job was a balance of medicine, business and law. It was the most meaningful profession of my life and the “flow” state became a frequent friend of mine in my nearly 30 years of claims practice. I never regretted the move and no physician I met with a claim was ever surprised I had made the change. Thank God for large favors.

H. Rubin, Memoirist and Author of Look Backward Angel an e-book available at Amazon.

Omniscience and Omnipresence

While appreciating God’s glorious hand in our lives, I used to wonder, how can He be listening to all of us simultaneously? One day I believed I understood. My point of view was and is a s follows: He is a SUPERnatural spirit. Time and space are his inventions. He lives outside of them, the great I AM. He doesn’t need sequential visits with us. Clearly they are simultaneous.

H. Robert Rubin, Memoirist and Essayist Author of Look Backward Angel, available through Amazon.