Sermon for Self-Purification

I think this country has been traumatized because too many people on each side have been seeing our country in black and white, no grays. Any one who writes or speaks publicly knows that hyperbole gets attention. It came from both sides. It’s divisive.

To the extent we can share our stories and their nuances, I think we will see more grays. I’ve tried to look back at the pain and joy I could share in my memoirs. You might find them comforting. Hope all goes well on your journey.

H. Rubin, author of Look Backward Angel, an e-book available on Amazon.


Since election night, I’ve been waiting for my leadership–any leadership: in my workplace, in my church, in my political party–to say something.  They haven’t.  Not the something I’ve been waiting for.  I’ve heard many calls for unity, for “moving toward one another,” even for action.  Many leaders have implored us to enact love and respect, to begin the process of reconciliation we’ll need to recover from the divisiveness of the election.

The problem with that message, for me, and for many others, I think, is simple psychology: trauma.  This election is different from other ones, and many of my friends feel trauma more than disappointment or anger.  We can see this difference playing out in the number of people seeking therapists, calling in sick, and in our schools where our children imitate us in a sick micro-performance as detailed in yesterday’s Sunday Times.  My husband and I work in schools…

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Revisiting My Memoirs

Some thoughts on my own memoirs….With God’s help I’ve been on a long journey to enhance my love and diminish my anger and fear. At 70 years of age, I’ve written 21 essays reflecting on God’s hand in my life. A famous writer once suggested you need to bleed on the page to write well. I have had much reason to celebrate despite the hard times expressed in my work. If the reader has 3 hours and $3.99 to spare I suggest you consider this portion of a review by one reader: “Dr. Rubin uses themed mini vignettes as chapters to tell the story of his life. It is a beautifully written account of one man’s life journey through childhood wounds and suffering. He takes the reader through the ups and downs of his career, his marriage, and parenting. There is pain, trial, joy, and ultimately peace. We journey with him as he travels from a victim to a victor. It highlights surrender, humility, faith, and above all else, love. It is almost a ‘how-to’ self-help book if it didn’t read like a poignant novel.” She later says, “Look Backward (Angel) is a story of hope and encouragement.”

H. Robert Rubin, Memoirist and essayist, Author of Look Backward Angel, available through Amazon in electronic format. Just Click below:

A Whole-Hearted Worklife

I dropped out of clinical medicine after 15 years of practice. I became a medicolegal claims professional managing malpractice claims. My job was a balance of medicine, business and law. It was the most meaningful profession of my life and the “flow” state became a frequent friend of mine in my nearly 30 years of claims practice. I never regretted the move and no physician I met with a claim was ever surprised I had made the change. Thank God for large favors.

H. Rubin, Memoirist and Author of Look Backward Angel an e-book available at Amazon.

Omniscience and Omnipresence

While appreciating God’s glorious hand in our lives, I used to wonder, how can He be listening to all of us simultaneously? One day I believed I understood. My point of view was and is a s follows: He is a SUPERnatural spirit. Time and space are his inventions. He lives outside of them, the great I AM. He doesn’t need sequential visits with us. Clearly they are simultaneous.

H. Robert Rubin, Memoirist and Essayist Author of Look Backward Angel, available through Amazon.



I am a pilgrim on a long relational journey. I knew several “Summers” (“500 days of Summer”) 50 years ago. I have focused on mining my subconscious for much of the last 50 years. I have been married to my spouse for nearly 40 years. I have centered on the Judeo- Christian God’s character and LOVE for over 30 years.

In the love of my life, I have been blessed with a  sensitive, forgiving spouse. I appreciate that living the nitty gritty of a daily life together is a thing apart from the “Love is blind”, infant stage of a relationship. On the other hand this second stage despite its difficulties is deeper, richer and more precious. I celebrate our differences. I love her devotion, spontaneity, artistic skill, and grace. As Byron so eloquently put it, “She walks in beauty like the night.” May God bless her always.


The Subconscious and Sanctification, Becoming More Like Christ

Per Tolstoy, “Everybody thinks of changing humanity, but nobody thinks of changing himself.” Your “to do” list is interesting, but, following the Holy Spirit as we mine the subconscious portion of our souls, in my opinion, is the key to becoming more Christ-like in all our human relations. “I shall know even as also I am known” in Paul’s love chapter suggests to me Christ wants what’s buried in our subconscious to bubble to the surface and be healed. From my perspective, it would take a rare miracle to accomplish that without an excellent behavioral therapist. Finding the right one is worth its weight in humility. For a more expansive explanation as it has applied to my 70 year struggle on this planet, you might enjoy, “Look Backward Angel,” my e-book on Amazon. H. Robert Rubin

Response to a blog that we are too technology obsessed;

I think the root of our problems is what wallows in the subconscious, not technology. From my perspective it’s only a tool whether it’s the wheel or the smartphone. I address these issues in my hopefully healing memoirs looking back over my 70 years. I invite you to join me on my journey.

H. Robert Rubin
Memoirist and Essayist
Author of Look Backward Angel, available through Amazon.